AFTER A SPIRITUAL STORM, I WAS INVITED TO GO TO MADONNA HOUSE ON

C ST, WASHINGTON  DC. I SPENT THE DAY THERE IN TOTAL SILENCE AND WAS BLESSED WITH SOME INSIGHTS TO MY SPIRITUAL JOURNEY AS A POUSTINIK AND QUASI HERMIT. I RECEIVED 2 WORDS IN POUSTINIA INSPIRED BY CATHERINE D. ONE WORD WAS DEFENSELESSNESS AND THE OTHER WAS FORGIVENESS. AFTER BEING WITH MY RELATIVES I CAN SEE WHY THEY WERE FOR ME TO PONDER.

THESE ARE THE WORDS I WROTE:

"I CAME HERE FOR MY PRIEST. IT’S NOT ABOUT ME. WHY AM I CONCERNED ABOUT MY FAULTS AND HOW TO CORRECT THEM? PLEASE ANSWER ME LORD!"

AND THEN I HEARD INTERIORLY:

"WHEN I POINT OUT TO YOU YOUR FAULTS, SHORTCOMINGS, WEAKNESSES IT IS TO HELP YOU IN THAT AREA. YOU ARE NOT CAPABLE OF ANYTHING. IT IS I WHO SAVES AND HEALS, FILLS AND RESTORES.  ALL YOU NEED IS FAITH AND CONFIDENCE THAT I CAN AND WILL DO THIS, IF YOU GET OUT OF THE WAY. WHEN YOU BECOME DEFENCELESS AND UNDERSTAND FORGIVENESS THEN I CAN FILL YOU WITH MY GRACE WHICH WILL BE THE WATER TO WASH THE FEET OF YOUR SPITITUAL SON WHOM YOU LONG TO HELP BECOME HOLY AND SAINTLY. THAT’S NOT ALL I DO. THERE ARE THOSE SOULS ENTRUSTED TO HIM WHOM YOU ALSO WASH THE FEET OF AND THE SOULS OF YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS,THE MMS AND ALL OTHERS YOU RECOMMEND TO ME AND THOSE ASSIGNED TO YOU BY MY MOTHER. SO NOW JOSEFA, LET ME WASH YOU CLEAN. BE DEFENSELESS AND FORGIVING. I WILL GIVE YOU THE GIFTS OF MY SPIRIT TO FILL YOU TO OVERFLOWING, MAKING OF YOU AN INCARNATION OF MYSELF (THE HOLY TRINITY).